Omigosh! That uncle of mine in Australia who was hospitalized was actually in coma and he passed away on friday itself. Gosh! My dad and him are pretty close. My dad wanted to go over to Australia to visit him but couldn't make it. Man! He must be feeling very bad and guilty right now.
I feel quite sad too. I mean, although we are not close, but I've met him a few times and he had visited us a few times over the pass years. My memory of him is pretty blur. All I know is he is a very nice guy and is pretty close to my dad. Somehow, I do feel the lost in me. That's what matters. He did left his footstep in my heart.
To make things worst, it was actually the monetary problem that caused my parents the flight to Australia. Part of it la. Another part was their time. If only they weren't working and had no financial problem, my dad wouldn't have to carry that guilt of not visiting him for the very last time with him forever.
And for that, I blame myself!! I mean, I am their daughter. Who else holds the responsibility to lessen their burdens in life other than ME?
Well, people will never wake up until they lose something in their life. Ain't that true?
I was talking to a friend of my friend yesterday. He was saying that he will only have the urge to change his lifestyle after he has fallen into a deep hole. Otherwise he will only be wasting his time. I wouldn't say that it is wrong. It is his opinion.
And I asked him back 4 questions. When do you think you will fall into that deep whole? 30 years from now? Can your parents wait that long? Why do you have to wait for it to happen instead of avoiding it? Isn't that human nature? They love to wait for things to happen. They love to waste their time. That is so BULLSHIT man!
I don't want to start after I lose something or someone again. Never is the right time. Fate lies in my OWN hand. I draw the route of MY life.
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