Jazs = Idiot No. 1

All I hear and see is the word REJECT. wtf

Got rejected from 2 production houses. One cause I CANT WRITE chinese and the other cause they can't take in too many interns. wtf

Rejections are fine with me. Seriously. I can't expect all production houses that I apply to say yes right?. I'm fine with rejections. No problem.

The main problem with these rejections are.... my friends who I was so naive and nice and stupid and idiot enough to encourage them to apply to try their luck either got accepted with offer letter or got calls to go interviews! wtf

I'm not jealous. I'm not saying they don't deserve. I certainly think they do. After all they are my friends. Otherwise why the heck do I even bother encouraging them in the first place. 

The thing is.... I applied first. and one of the production house actually told me that they accepted me adie and they are processing the offer letters. wtf. The next thing I know, I receive a mail saying "Sorry". wtf

Sorry my foot!! 讲一套做一套.  (Literally translated as "Say and do different things")

What I'm saying is that, I actually feel like a real idiot for once and for real. Why? Because Puikz did told me her story before this about how she stupidly taught her classmate to apply for the same company. And here I am. Reliving it. 

I'm not saying that what I did was wrong or that I deeply regreted it (ok.. perhaps abit got la..). I just thought, you know, if I were to be a little selfish then, everything will not be this troublesome right? I wouldn't have to start applying to random production houses that I chose not to apply before this. I can stop worrying about this whole internship and focus on my other assignments. 

Or was this all Karma?? Cuz I actually turned down the first production house that called me for interview. But that was after I was informed that I got accepted by another production house!. So its not really my fault also right? 

Anyhow, I feel so dumb. Really dumb. Dissapointed with myself. I think I'm giving up already. Like what Nigel said, it doesn't really matter also lor where UTAR send us. Since we don't know the other places as well... what difference does it make?

For some reason, I'm not that thrilled about this internship thingy anymore. Too much assignments to worry about? Or am I just that chill? Instead, my dad was more worried and gan cheong compared to me. lol. Dad being dad la.. =D

Ah well... Am gonna try till this weekend which is like only 2 days left and whatever it is next week... God Bless me la...

- You'll know it when luck isn't on your side -